Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Moving Forward

Thankfully I was able to miscarry on my own last week and didn't need surgery. I was off of work most of the week because the bleeding was rather heavy and I had cramping that lortab couldn't handle.

Tuesday, July 16th, was the worst. I woke up at 3 am cramping horribly and stayed awake until 7. I literally took an hour long bath because that was the only thing that made it bearable. Shortly after 7 I passed what I believe to be the baby.

I went back to the dr on Friday for a scan and everything cleared itself out. They took some blood and I am borderline anemic and still have an HCG of 277 so they want me to keep going for blood work once a week until it's at 0. I started iron supplements last night for the anemia.

Yesterday and today I have felt really good. I took my first walk last night and have gotten back on track to eating healthier. My plan is to concentrate on losing weight and studying for the CPA exam, and then we will go back to the fertility doctor in January 2014.

Our time to be parents will come.

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Still no heartbeat

My Father’s way may twist and turn,
My heart may throb and ache.
But in my soul I’m glad I know,
He maketh no mistake.

My cherished plans may go astray,
My hope may fade away
But still I’ll trust my Lord to lead,
For He doth know the way.

Tho’ night be dark and it may seem,
That day will never break;
I’ll pin my faith, my all in Him.
He maketh no mistake.

There’s so much now I cannot see,
My eyesight’s far too dim;
But come what may,
I’ll simply trust And leave it all to Him.

And by and by the mist will lift
And plain it all He’ll make.
Through all the way, tho’ dark to me,
He made not one mistake.

By A. M. Overton

Our second opinion yesterday confirmed that there is still no heartbeat. I have come home to try and miscarry on my own. I go back again next Monday to see whether anything has passed. No real bleeding so far, but the ultrasound tech did say that it looked like the sac was starting to break up.

I am back to work today. We aren't completely shocked from yesterday as we knew going in there was a very slim chance that things would be positive. My plan is to concentrate on losing weight until the end of the year (and study for my CPA) and then we will try IUI again in January.

Friday, July 5, 2013


We went on a little spending spree, or credit card spree rather. But the good news is I don't regret it.

We bought a new king size bed. The queen we had was very tight with Mattie sprawled out in between us and most nights hubby ended up falling asleep on the couch. Of course we had to then buy new bedding. Then I decided we had to buy a new LED tv for the bedroom so we could enjoy TV in bed.

So the final damage is:
Kohls - $248.50 (bedding)
Capital One - $560 (tv)
Furniture Store - $1100 (bed, tv stand for living room, and delivery), 0% if paid in 6 months

With JC's student loans I'll pay off the Kohls and Capital One in August, and plan to pay off the furniture in 6 months, all while continuing to pay down other debt too.

I have a follow-up ultrasound on Monday to check for a heartbeat with my OB. Even if I implanted late, we should be able to hear one by this point. I think we have been long prepared for the worst.

I have been in a pretty foul mood the last 2 days. Hubby was really getting on my nerves yesterday and made me wish I had worked instead of had the day off. I'm sure the 10 inches of rain we have been getting isn't helping either. Add attitude from a co-worker on top of that and it just makes a swell mood. Honestly the only thing I want right now is to be alone with my animals.